400 is the number
352 is what I need
For a way out
For a rest
Maybe it'll hurt
maybe it'll be painless
But a moment of pain
leading to an eternity of release
sounds good to me
The problems may be temporary
They most probably will stop
Just two more years
Just twenty four months
I don't think I can
It's rough
the world is trying to crush me
i want a way out
i want to rest
If you decide
I'll probably follow
You're my last chance
my only hope
My best friend
My one and only
Like a sister
Sharing the same problems
Embarrassment doesn't exist
Pain doesn't exist
Sadness doesn't exist
When you are there
After you leave
I feel lost
Alone
And th
Clumsily tip toeing across the ledge
Hanging precariously over an abyss
The path never ending
It forks before me
Which way do I go?
I know not which
I dare not choose
Afraid to fall
Afraid to lose
What is there to lose?
No love
No friends
No place of comfort
What runs through my mind
Staying always
Never ending
Abuse and suffering
The days blur and mix
Oft forgetting those close to me
What's ahead and behind
What's gone and past
Dangling from the strands of my frazzled mind
Everything is changing
Everything is different
I can't get a grasp on my surroundings
My mind shredded
My undoing is myself.
The path ahead is dark and uncertain
I know not what lays before me
I cower strangled by fear
You touch my hand,
Smile, help me up
I know not what lays before me
However I only need know you're beside me
It strangles the fear
And leads me forward
Will you be my shield?
The shadows shifted as the old electric lighting flickered to life. Someone’s footsteps thumped down the stairs into the poorly lit room. The old stone walls of the room hidden beneath the cellar shone damp in the sickly yellow lighting. The shadows seemed to stalk and conspire together as a woman walked into the large stone room. She was tall with long slender legs, thin waist, and thick jet black hair neatly piled on the top of her head. Her long dress was red and black with a long slit down each side up to her hips. The jeweled floral pattern of the corset shone and sparkled, blinding a few of the inhabitants of the room. Behind
You made me promise.
You say you almost slipped.
I just can't tell you truth.
I can't disappoint you.
I'm weak, though you think me strong.
A cheerful facade
A decaying truth
Can I borrow some of your strength?
Just a little?
I'm sorry
Don't keep your pain to your self.
It'll start the decay.
Don't be me.
Used to silence and loneliness.
Help.
Please.
Don't fall.
Don't decay.
Let me help.
Let me fall.
Let me decay.
Let me be your unsteady foundation.
When I fade,
Have my strength and make it your own.
I need you happy.
I need you to let loose your tight grip.
Let it fall away.
Let me take it with me,
When i crash down with everyone's burd
How do you know that I'm without reason?
A stranger in my own body
Hiding behind a cheerful facade
Everything you think you know about me is a lie
You say I'm strong and smart and beautiful
But really i can't even hold myself together
I make a promise and break down
Silent tears as the blood drips from my fingertips
I messed up.
Why can't i hold myself together?!
The facade is starting to shatter
What should I do?!
You knowing scares me out of my wits.
Don't leave me.
you can't leave me.
I need you.
You keep me from completely shattering.
I'm weak.
Why can't i fix myself?
I'm too dependent
But...
I still don't think I can survive without y